60.  I read the dictionary.
61.  I subscribe to National Geographic, though I do not know why, really.
62.  In my apartment are four computers.  Only one presently works.
63.  My bicycle chain needs oil, my bike seat needs to be replaced, and there's a huge hole in the middle finger of one of my gloves that must be sewn shut.  The hole started in January.
64.  I fantasize about the questions the interviewer will ask after my first book is published.  Actually, it could be my third or even fifth book—fantasies are easy that way.  I've imagined writing a good dozen or so books.  Does this make me a fantasy writer?
65.  I described this site to my family once as non-fiction writing, without the research.  That's because you've always been lazy, my sister concluded.  My brother and sister visited my site once, and went no further than here, and here.  They don't want to know.
66.  I usually think everything is my fault.
67.  Playing with a Ouija board with my aunt once, I asked it when my father would die.  At that time he was in his mid-fifties.  The board said 63.  He did.
68.  My room is a diorama in the museum of clutter.
69.  ..is not one of my favorite positions.  Spooning is.
70.  There is a terrifying place I should go, emotionally, but I don't.  I don't know anybody who makes such excursions into the emotional abyss (maybe I'm avoiding anyone who might challenge me), and at the mouth of that pit are all sorts of diversions encouraging me to go elsewhere.  I comply.
71.  I have been convinced, at least three seperate times, that my death was imminent.  I was wrong.
72.  I think there should be bare breasts in the Department of Justice, instead of naked ambition.
73.  I want to live—and I mean live for real, not like I do watching life, but like I have never done before, living life—at least once before I die.  (Refer to the abyss in #70).
74.  I sleep in my underwear.  Sometimes I even wear a cap.
75.  I brush my teeth daily, I seldom floss, I use a tongue scraper.  And Listerine.
76.  Most of my clothes are black.  Everything I've bought in the last year is.
77.  My right ear is pierced.  I usually do not wear anything in it.
78.  Basically I am a taker.  When I give, it is only because, for that moment, I figure I can afford it (spiritually, emotionally, etc.).  But I believe that on balance I am always in the red.  I am waiting for all that was ever stolen to be given back.
79.   I admitted a guy I knew from high school to the detox where I work.  When he realized who I was, he expressed—through a light mist of booze—the sympathy he used to feel for me when other guys would steal my lunch money. 
80.  I'm surprised I did not grow up to be the Unabomber.

50.  I stay until the credits finish rolling.
51.  I cried after Men In Black.
52.  I recently saw "Life is beautiful" and it is haunting me.
53.   I can't pay my bills and my rent. 
54.   Once in a while, I wake up 'foggy,' unable to concentrate or even think straight for ten whole seconds together.  This indicates I am going to have a seizure; in fact it is the effect of 'partial seizures' which are the beginning of a generalized seizure before it has spread throughout my brain.  If my thoughts are coherent enough, I can at this point take 3 mg of Ativan, and sleep for eighteen hours.  Somehow this prevents me from having a seizure, but it still costs a whole day.  I woke up that way this morning. 
55.   I do not want a lingering death.  But I believe that within the transition from the temporal to the metaphysical, though it may count from our perspective as only a minute or two, it may contain days, months, or even lifetimes of suffering.  I think it is funny how we use the phrase, 'Better off dead,' when we really have no idea.
56.   I am not sure, but I suppose human culture has improved since the Crusades.  I know Humanity has not.
57.   I like the sky to be gray and overcast, and and the ground to be white and snowy.  Everyone's mood descends closer to the mood I live in always, and I don't feel so all alone.  Blizzards are good.
58.   When I first get out of bed, I pee sitting down.  It relieves the need to aim.
59.   There is no such thing as a lone gunman in a political assassination.

35.  I do not believe in hell.  I believe in love, and therefore I believe there can exist an absence of love.  Every representation of hell, in literature and lore, is an incomplete effort to describe the hell that is love's absence.
36.  I believe in heaven, and have been there. 
37.  I love pasta, with garlic, olive oil and parmesan cheese.  I eat it almost every day.
38.  I had a boyfriend who hated garlic and onions.  I missed garlic then.  I don't miss it anymore.
39.  I love to blow my nose.
40.  Lost in Space was once my favorite TV show.
41.  My life is more than half over.  I could be wrong.
42.  I love to dance.  With women, with men, with strangers...
43.  I do not know how to be an adult around children; I know how to be a child around adults.
44.  Sometimes I think I am really quite profoundly insane.
45.  I like to laugh.  I laughed all the time when I was a baby.  I laugh when I am nervous.  I do not like to cry, so I almost never do.
46.  I started shaving my head right after Michael Stipe did.  He still has not noticed.
47.  My back is hairy.
48.  I think most people do work that does not suit them, and that we spend most of our talents dealing with our boredom and dissatisfaction.
49.  I do not contribute to National Public Radio; I contribute to the Sierra Club and Greenpeace.

26.  I hate Noah Adams' voice, and everything about Neil Conan.
27.  I take medication for epilepsy.  I took an antidepressant once for a little while.  All it did was improve orgasms, so I stopped taking it (see No. 3).
28.  I tend to fall in love with men who are ten years younger than me.  These days I could go twenty (that would make him 23), but most men that age are not so badly in need of a relationship that they'd be willing to scale my emotional Everest for one.
29.  I believe that HIV does not cause AIDS.
30.  I like Robert Siegel's voice.  My clairvoyant intuition is that Robert Siegel can be trusted, while the former two cannot.
31.  I procrastinate.
32.  I do not procreate.
33.  I know little of the world around me, and I need to look up references that people make to popular movies.  I know too much of the world inside me.
34.  I feel guilty because I am editing this post, which is time-tagged 1:20 PM, and it is actually 8:50 PM.

1.  I like Dire Straits, the Eighties and the late Seventies.
2.  I am the youngest of five.  My oldest sister is dead. 
3.  I like sex more than I like relationship, and I feel I should change this. 
4.  I used to be a firefighter.  I delivered two babies, both girls.
5.  I hate my job.
6.  I usually hate myself; I was suicidal once.
7.  My father took me and my siblings to see the Sound of Music when I was in second grade.  We told the school that I was going to a doctor's appointment.  I still feel guilty, and I still am grateful.  He was a tremendously good man.
8.  Most days I sleep til noon.  Some days, I go to bed at dawn. 
9.  I have a switch on my doorbell, and it is usually off.
10.  I like vodka martini's with three olives.
11.  Garlic and olive oil are my friends.
12.  I want love more than anything.  I try to hide from it in sex, but I want love more than anything. 
13.  I'm not sure, but in the third grade, my best friend and I were in love, I think.  I never went past the sex.
14.  I am a writer.  This is a lie and I still don't know what the truth is.
15.  I have never smoked.  My last date was over two years ago.  He smoked exotic little cigarettes that smelled delicious.  We dislocated my shoulder having sex.  We had only the one date.
16.  My uncle did something to me when I was not quite three.
17.  I listen to classical music like I live life; they are both rich with meaning, and I give little attention to either.  But I keep them both close, just in case.
18.  I drink coffee like a fiend, and eat chocolate (dark chocolate) like an addict.
19.  My penis is shrinking.
20.  I don't drive or own a car.  I ride a bike (bicycle) 52 weeks a year.  I'm stuck somewhere between thirty years ago and now, and I can't find me.
21.  I have no contact with my family.  I have no contact with my family.
22.  I sleep on a futon that I fold up every morning, while the coffee brews.  The frame I salvaged off the street.
23.  If someone rings my doorbell, and I have not disabled it with my switch, then I flee into the bathroom from where I can peer out, unseen, through tiny spaces in the blinds and see the would-be visitor reflected in the windows next door when he finally leaves.
24.  There is a whole huge hell of a lot that I don't know, so if a computer crash irretrievably kills a post that I've been slaving over for hours just moments before I post it, then half of the time I will thank the spirit who saved me from an unforseen embarrassment; the other half of the time I will smash a coffee mug into a thousand pieces.
25.  I once threw a coffee mug through a TV screen.  Up til then, I had always wanted to do that.  That was almost ten years ago.  It was my last TV.