do we have any grasp of how much?
I had a dream with two tall spirits who showed me lifetimes out of time. Before I woke, I asked, "In less than an instant, we can experience centuries? even whole universes?" They nodded once.
Cardiac bypass surgery costs ten times as much as another non-invasive, more effective treatment. The treatment that pays more is recommended more.
The toxic medications I have been taking for 15% of my lifetime—up until last week—cost one thousand dollars per month. I wonder if I can get a prescription for a condo in the South End, instead.
a young man I knew told me he can't eat a whole pint of Ben & Jerry's because it's too sweet, and he's on a diet.
A precious soul-friend of mine, who spent time as a doctor in Africa, told me of little babies there who died for lack of a pint of clean water.
My first lover (we were both 9), came back to see me when we were seventeen, for something... but all I wanted was sex. Whatever David wanted, he left without it. And I have never seen him since.
A fifteen year old boy wants a thirty year old man to fuck him. The man hardly knows the cute boy, who bends over for him. They have no love or committment to one another, no framework to support such a wild excursion beyond the limits of social convention. None of this stops them. The man refrains only for his fear the boy has AIDS.
The illusion that this life is all there is gets stronger as it gets shorter.
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