i asked Joanne, my boss, for holistic health resources, and told her I had stopped the cocktail. My interest really was more in getting company over here near my decision, human support. Just being out about it is such a relief. I feel good about telling people my status since I stopped hiding from it. I don't need to keep it a secret; I have tested this hypothesis as rigorously as I am capable, and I have decided what I need—I have fallen back into my own arms and from here I can do anything.
I am listening to reX's ranT's (the encore of last night's show) with his guest Tayler doing psychic readings. Geno, reX's houseguest, is there, too. I think Geno is either a fabulous person, all self-actualized and potent in life; or he's sinister. Either way would make me uncomfortable, which is the feeling I have been getting from him the last several days. I love Tayler. I saw him on the cam when I got home last night, after the show, and I thought he was Daniel. I don't know what it was I saw; the hair, the posture, the way he glanced at reX... And now his voice, words, message—his style—it all works for me.
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