{"id":178,"date":"2001-09-25T20:58:24","date_gmt":"2001-09-26T01:58:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/burgwinkel.com\/blog\/?p=178"},"modified":"2001-09-25T20:58:24","modified_gmt":"2001-09-26T01:58:24","slug":"reply-to-cold-cold","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/burgwinkel.com\/blog\/?p=178","title":{"rendered":"Reply to cold cold"},"content":{"rendered":"<div>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/www.halfmadspinster.com\/2001_09_16_wordsmitharchive.asp#5795375\">Reply to cold cold morning<\/a><br \/>&#8211; Mary T. Helmes, 12\/21\/97\n<\/div>\n<p>\n<i>&#8230;and anything could happen<\/i>\n<\/p>\n<p>\nAhh, Mary.&nbsp;  Is it you who make the tears?&nbsp; Or is it me?&nbsp; Or are they made in that horrible holy space between us all, where we fail &#8212; fail to meet; to love; to touch and give; to touch and receive; to let go; to hold on&#8230;&nbsp;\n<\/p>\n<p>\n<i>(I want &#8212; just one more time in my life &#8212; for the center of my world to be my nana&#8217;s chocolate chip cookies.)<\/i>.&nbsp;\n<\/p>\n<p>\nBut here the tears gather, in the wet of my own eyes; blame me for them.&nbsp;  Guilt by association.&nbsp; But I don&#8217;t want them.&nbsp;  But here they are, more and more.&nbsp;\n<\/p>\n<p>\nAnd more.&nbsp; Thank you.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Reply to cold cold morning&#8211; Mary T. Helmes, 12\/21\/97 &#8230;and anything could happen Ahh, Mary.&nbsp; Is it you who make the tears?&nbsp; Or is it me?&nbsp; Or are they made in that horrible holy space between us all, where we &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/burgwinkel.com\/blog\/?p=178\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[299],"class_list":["post-178","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","tag-mary-t-helmes"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/burgwinkel.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/178","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/burgwinkel.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/burgwinkel.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/burgwinkel.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/burgwinkel.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=178"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/burgwinkel.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/178\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/burgwinkel.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=178"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/burgwinkel.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=178"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/burgwinkel.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=178"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}